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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Shattered to a million pieces...

Today is the day i've felt that grief...
that disappointment of not being able to have what i want.
the sorrow of what fate has brought upon that 4 pairs of heels...
and me.

yes.
i m sad.
so so sad.

long story short.
went on a heels hunt today aft sku for tml's medsoc presentation.
started off at white sands and went to tm and then finally parkway.

it was 1st at tm i saw that lovely pair of heels that i would happily die for.
it was PERFECT.
it was MADE for me to fall in love with.
it was destiny.
and...
it was too small. ):

it was from their old collection and they wouldnt be replenishin stocks...
so said tt salesgirl.
i was devastated.

next was club marc at pp.
yes yes,
i eyed THREE other pairs there.
50% discount.
they had that "MUST-BUY" labelled everywhere.
it was SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO PRETTY.

i asked if they had my size...
jus in case i'm gonna be let down again.
oh yes, they DO! (:
so i happily tried it on...

i was so ready to even buy 2 pairs if they had the right sizes...
and guess what?

the cutting was too small.

i could hardly fit my right foot in.
oh my god.
my heart broke and the pieces seemed to pierce thru and penetrated out of my body.
the pain...
if only i was still on that medication,
my heart could jus stop.

4 pairs in a day.
all so lovely.
all so pretty.
all so must-have.
all so i-cant-have.

i am sad.
very sad.

p.s. where's my polaroid and tamagotchi? still waitin, santa. u better hurry.

it's 12:29 AM now

Sunday, July 27, 2008

tinseltown

okays, long time no blog.
well, not really...
but it's been long since i've really rant abt much relative stuff.
HAHA.

not that i have much to say tonight,
but i jus wanted to give a random spam.
HAHA. (:

oh right.
gonna finish my course of medicine soon.
this racing heart beat thing has got to stop man.
for the past few days,
i have been walkin around feelin so weak.
a mere 5 mins walk turned out to be just like running a 2.4 km run.
my heart beats so fast that i wouldnt be surprised if it just stops.
=X

anyways,
i m so bloody busyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
so irritating.

hmmm,
feel like gettin a tamagotchi.
den i'd play wif it...
get my mind off stuff once in a while.
sighs.

nope, everyday i wait...
and wait and wait and wait.
i look up to the skies,
wondering when it's finally coming.
nope,
my polaroid's still not appearing yet.

it's 10:43 PM now

Thursday, July 24, 2008

sick

she's down.

it's 11:03 AM now

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

if only i could bond wif my bed.

no sleep, no.

yes, i stayed up the whole dang night. yes, i did.

i m proud of myself. (:
i finally finished my part for marketing, so far.
yes, SO FAR. ):

i was intending to go to bed...
catching a lil eye shut for a mere hr is better than none.
but sheesh,
it's freaking 7:17 now.
i have to get ready for sku already.
like, CRAP.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i need my sleep. ):

i'm sure to fall asleep later.
why, u ask?
ONE, i m T-I-R-E-D.
TWO, jus the thought of havin 4 hrs of straight lectures is killing me, jus the thought alone.

think i'm most probably skippin script writing later.
dunno whether i should or not.
hmmm, shall list out a to-do list 1st and then decide if i really need that few extra hrs...

i dont wanna go partly because,
i have yet done my synopsis.
it's to be 2-4 pages long...
no way i m gonna squeeze anything else outta my already-dry-like-sahara brain, no siree.

OH,
i'm gonna go for another vioce audition later.
tt edmund guy called me ytd...
hmmmm, wonder if i got through the 1st round.
oh wells,
regardless...hope i get through this one.
dun wanna waste my time mannnnnnnn...

toastmasters.
oh man, they wan me to do a project speech comin session.
dun think i have enough time to prepare for it...
i dun even think i m up for it yet.
gawdddddddd.
wad if i jus screw up and sound like a dumb fool?????
pffft.
anyways, weiren said it's easy.
guess i'll give it a shot...
IF it's really as easy as it seems.
i'll know when i see the project kit later.
prayssssss.

oh wow wee.
7:27am already.
shit. i'm so tired...
i cant really think straight.
it's like...i have no idea what time to go out of hse now.
darn...
lemme thing...
9am...
8:30am...
8am...
there, 8 it is.
so now i only have some freaking 1800 seconds to get ready.
oh GREAT, just GREATTTTTTTTTTTTT.

wonder what i should wear today.
hmmmmmmmmmm...

oh man, dun mind me.
i m too tired...
i m like, talkin to myself now.
yes, i'm mentally malfunctioned now...
i guess u can say that.
HA.

anyways...
YESTERDAY! :D

say love!, my love. (:
haha.
had dinner at outback.

alice's sth sth is OoH-laH-LAhhhh~
hahaha.
the chicken was SO SO SO GOOD.
yes, coming from a beef eater with her beef diet.
lol.
i shall repeat,
THE CHICKEN WAS SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!!!
haha.
it was really juicy and that lifeless piece of dead chicken was really barbequed to that optimum stage that it was so smokey and...MUACK!*
hahahahhaha.
the mushrooms on top,
my oh my...so juicy too! hahaha.
and and,
THE BACON AND THAT GIANTIC BLANKET OF MELTED CHEESE.
MY GOLLY, WAS IT LIKE HEAVEN OR HEAVEN!?!
hahahhaha.
it was REALLYYYYYYYYYYYYY GOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. ((:

people reading this, yes YOU.
YOU LAH, alamak...dun look look around.
YOU. go try k? ((:
heeees.

and yes, FINALLY.
we got to watch dark knight.
it was not bad.
haha...there were some jumpy parts and all...
joker really look damn retard la.
haha, but he's really good.
too bad he died.
heh.
and that LAU guy.
din realise he was actually singaporean.
eek!
ahaha.

OH OH!
AND SOME PARTS WERE SHOT IN HONG KONGGGGGGGGGG~!!! :DDDD

hahahaahahaahahhhahahaha.

oh wells,
shall update again another time.
time for sku...

and oh YAY!
look at the skies!
its's so so so DARK!
it's so freaking gonna rain again!
like, GREAT!
what a GREAT way to SPOIL my day!
YAY!!!! :DDDDD

SHEESH. )$*#$*7%(&!)(_)$()*)*%)(#&*@&#^

oh i scream: the world says happy wednesday!

it's 7:39 AM now

Monday, July 21, 2008

THAT THIEF!!!

WANTED!
CHANEL YUN CHEW MUN
FOR NABBING TWO BOXES OF MY GRANOLA BARS!
REWARD: ALL HER BELONGINGS

goodness gracious.
of all things that happens to me...
WHY?...WHYYYYYYYYY???
WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE A SIBLING LIKE THAT!?!?!?!?

sheesh.
she took 2 boxes of my beloved granola bars...
WITHOUT MY CONSENT.
and of all flavors,
she had to clear all my BAKED APPLE flavor; THE NICER FLAVOR.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I HATE HER!!!
my mummy bought those granola bars for ME ok!?!?!
fine, if u wanted to share,
FINE, i'll share.
one baked apple, one oatmeal raisins, one each for us.
but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...
u left me wif all the oatmeal raisins cos u ONLY liked baked apple.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE, THEN DUN TAKE EVERYTHING LAH!
you could have jus gave up ur box of raisins and lived with it!
but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...
u HAD to take 2 boxes,
and it HAD to be both baked apples.

I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U!!!!
you STOLE them from me...
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE SUCH A HORRIBLE PIECE OF SHIT U KNOW!?!?

it's 9:33 PM now

Thursday, July 17, 2008

she's standin by the edge.

KOK showed me a really sweet clip today.
i m so touched, really. (:

sighs.
i miss her tons.
and shi jia mo ni fo drink de jia jia liang teh too!

i think i m goin nuts.
i cant take it anymore.
i can jus totally breakdown any second.
sighs.
sighs.
sighs.

worst, my one and only remedy isnt tryin hard enough.
sheesh.

it's 8:51 PM now

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Hug her tight for she might go.

i love raisins.
yes, i do.

dried up grapes.
WHOOOOOOO~!
lovely california golden seedless raisins.

raisins raisins raisins.
yum yum yum! (:

i love blueberries too! :D
and...raspberries and cranberries.
OOOHH CRANBERRIES! ((:

not exactly a fan of fresh strawberries...
but i'd drink up if u put them in a blender with milk and ice cream! x)

oh, i hate yoghurt.
BUT, i love yoghurt from YOGHURT PLACE!
ironic huh?
haha.
black forest's my favorite (:
cuppacino and mixed berries too!
ahhhhhhhhhahahahahaha.

ICE CREAM!
B&Js' CHERRY GARCIA!
and tom's palette's SALTED CARAMEL CHEESECAKE!
my oh my.
heaven in my mouth.
haha.

i miss xi men's plum fried chicken cutlet...
and their custard egg pudding. ):

oh oh oh...
and so much more...
sighs.

dang braces.
i cant eat now...
i am so hungry.
I AM SO HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

I MISS BEING ABLE TO BITE NORMAL!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!

):

it's 10:31 PM now

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Sneaking around a lil bit.

Thursday.

oh thursdays...

tutorials from 9 to 4.

its so boring.

no, i cannot be late.

no, i cannot be mia.

so yea.

bummer.

BUT,

good thing though...

1st n last tut are all conducted in mac lab.

so its still cool.

ess gra's jus about foolin' around with softwares and stuff...

its fun...

oogling at all the wonderful and MAGICAL functions of the tool box.

haha.

then,

there's JOURNALISM.

sheesh.

it's always writing and writing and writing.

goodness gracious.

those press release and articles are never gonna stop coming huh?

anyways,

on the BRIGHT side... ((:

today's was our last apel session.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

BYE BYE APEL,

KISS MY ASS!

lol.

today has got to be the best apel lesson ever.

considering the fact that darryl david din even turn up.

hahaha.

we din do ANYTHING to do with effective living today.

joo and i even rushed out to grab a sandwich from the ccm ppl during lesson.

haha x)

*oh, the sandwiches were GOOD. (:*

laaaaaadeeeeeeeedums.

i'm bored now.

journalism tut.

i jus finished my tut assign.

so here i am wasting time away while waitin for lesson to go on...

it's so boringggggggggggg.

headin off wif joo later.

no, no sleep for us tonight.

like, YAY.

gotta rush our marketing journals and gdf assigns.

sheesh,

if i have a mo to breathe,

i'd use the window to shoot myself.

so screwed.

deadline's tml.

TOMORROW.

*note to self: return library books by today.*

i want a holiday, ):

so so badly.

i want salted caramel cheesecake icecream.

no, i NEED. D:

ARGHHHHHHHHHH.

miss my darling. ):

i miss canada too. )):

i am willing to die for a trip to finland. )):

*yes, tt's how desperate i am now.*

okays, enough out random rants.

snappin back to NOW.

SHIT,

jus got called to read out my article.

haha.

think i sounded so funny.

cos i made some last min amendments to it.

toastmasters tml.

dental appt tml.

sheesh.

right aft sku i'd have to rush to the other side of singapore and then rush back to sku again.

gawdddddddd.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

i think i am crazy.

like, seriously. ):

HELP(!)

it's 2:38 PM now

school blues

FUCK.
EFF APEL.
EFF MISSION STATEMENT.
EFF PERSONALITY TEST.
EFF INTERNET EXPLORER.

EFF GDF.
EFF PHOTOSHOP.
EFF INDESIGN.
EFF LIONS BEFRIENDERS.
EFF ASSIGNMENT 2 AND 3 AND 4 AND 5 AND 6...

EFF MARETING.
EFF REFLECTIVE JOURNALS.
EFF THE CONCEPTS.
EFF THE DEADLINES.

EFF SONY ERICSSON.
EFF MY PHONE.
EFF MY PHONE.
EFF MY PHONE.
EFF MY PHONE.

EFF IT ALL.

Sheesh.
i'm gettin so stressed, i'm gonna crack the nut soon.
breakdowns and hallucinations.
its like i'm goin crazy.

oh no no no. ):

bunkin in at joo's tml.
sighs.
i hate friday.

and, THANK YOUS to you lovely people who have been there for me (:
I LOVE YOU ALL.

it's 12:07 AM now

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

bring on the jumping beans.

STRESSED.
):

so much to do, so lil time.
well, tt always seem to be the case isnt it?
oh gee, how true.

anyways.
same old scenario - 4 marketin journals and gdf assignment due friday.
hope i dun have to stay up for 2 days like i did the last time.
sheesh.

i need help.
I NEED HELP.

anyhoos.
so much to blog abt from the past days.
yes, no worries, i'll do it once i get a window.
i NEED to rant, u see. (:

hulk - my daily dose of angst.
joo - my source of sanity at the mo.
POOP - my rant box. (:

hahaha.

SPEAKERS' SERIES TOMORROW!!!
:D
i get to wear a suit!
haha.
still comtemplating to whether to bring my blazor or not.
hahaha...
i wanna wanna wanna bring it.
but then, it'd be too bulky...
so...
heck.

oh wells.
back to work.
sighs.

till later, lovlies.

P.S. Someone get me a POLARIOD if you please? it'd spare me from all my daily fantasies of owning one...i'd be SO SO SO GRATEFUL! :D
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, i wan a polaroid...pretty pretty please. ((:
MANY MANY THANK AND MUCH LOVES. (:

it's 7:40 PM now

Twitty-Dee! (: